I received a phone call from my very good friend Lindsay - her 32 year old horse was deteriorating fast - his back legs already wobbly and now his front leg was not steady so she was heading to the stables in Fife to make Brummels final arrangements. She called me and asked if I could send healing to them both and I asked if she wanted me to come over to be with her and Brum and she said if I could that would be really good.
So i cancelled all my meetings, packed my car with my healing aids and headed off to Fife. Of course i was feeling very emotional - although i haven't been fully active in Brummels life I have known him for the 20 years that Lindsay has had him in her life and in the last few years we have known he is getting old and I have offered him healing on a few occasions which he seemed to accept and like.
So to help me keep my emotions in check I made myself a Bach Flower Mixture which contained Rescue Remedy to help me be calm, Red Chestnut for the over concern of loved ones, Larch for the fear that my abilities to heal won't work or are not good and Mimulus for the anxiety of having to go through this experience with Lindsay and Brum.
When i got the phone call i immediately focused in my mind on Brum and sent him healing and used the Reiki power symbol so the healing would be strong. So when I arrived at the stables, Lindsay told me to be careful as Brum had been biting everyone so when I approached his stable he looked up at me and immediately I could see recognition in his eyes – yes he knows me but this was different, he was recognising my energy and the healing energy I had been sending him, how amazing. As I went up to his stall I was of course being careful not to get bitten but he stretched his head out and put his head on my shoulder and sort of moved his back jaw area and pulled me close to him and and just rested like that – he was giving me a hug! He held me like that for about 10 minutes. It was very special and from that moment onward I know i will never again need Larch as a remedy for my ability to heal animals.
When Lindsay called me I told her to go and get some Rescue Remedy and to give it to both herself and to Brum as often as she felt necessary and that I would make a mixture of for each of them which I need when i had spent some time healing Brum and had had a chat to Lindsay. I cannot give a remedy to an animal with it being a vet referral but the vet had previous given permission for me to give Brum mixtures so the vet was happy for me to make another mixture.
This is what I mixed for Lindsay
Pine - for feelings of guilt - of course she was and is feeling guilty about what she was about to do
Walnut - which is to help in times of major change - not having a horse to look after, after 20 years of him being her focus is a huge life change.
Red Chestnut - for fear and over concern for loved ones
Honeysuckle - to help her to not dwell on the past, this remedy is good for helping people get over bereavement
Mimulus for the anxiety for what she was about to do for Brum
Gentian for getting back up on her feet after a setback - putting your horse to sleep is a pretty big setback.
Rescue Remedy - the great thing about rescue remedy is that it has 5 remedies in it but it actually only counts as one in a mixture so she would benefit from the Star of Bethlehem (for grief), Rock Rose (for terror) and and Cherry Plum (fear of losing control)
You are only allowed 7 remedies in a mixture so thats why the rescue remedy came in handy.
I told Lindsay to take 4 drops of the mixture as often as she wanted - normally we would say 4 drops 4 times a day but in the circumstances taking the mixture more is fine. I also told her it would be ok for her to give to her mum too - her mum will have been feeling all of the above too.
This is what i made up for Brum
Walnut - i had read that Walnut helps the soul of the animal move on, his soul was about to have a big change so this seems appropriate.
Olive - he must have been tired as he never lies down and he had started to lean his bum on the stable wall. Olive is for people who are exhausted of body and mind - i don't think Brums mind was exhausted but his body was getting there.
Oak - is for those who are exhausted but they struggle on - Brummel definitely struggled on.
Impatiens - for some patience and to slow him down because even though his legs didn't work properly he was still pushy and wanting to get out and about.
Rescue Remedy - to help with stress of watching everyone around him cry and be upset. It would also help with the fears he would have started to feel.
So we were all sucking on our mixtures. I definitely think mine helped me to stay calm and keep my emotions in check.
I gave Brum a couple of hours of healing - mixing TTouch with healing and also colour therapy - i have a handheld therapy light that i can change colours so i gave him some Magenta which is a beautiful healing colour. Everything was very calm. I went back to the stables just after 6am to give Brum some healing before the people arrived to put him to sleep. He seemed calm and accepted some healing but it was more important that Lindsay got to spend the last hour with her beloved horse so I healed from a distance, including Lindsay and her mum in the healing i was giving.
When the time came it was very emotional. Lindsay left Brummel and got into the car with her mum and drove away as they didn't want to hear the noise of the bolt firing. My car was blocked in so I couldn't get away so I sat in my car and continued to send healing and asked all of my guides, my animal guides and all of the Arch Angels to surround Brummel to give healing and help his soul pass on. I felt a huge swell of emotion and then heard the noise of the bolt gun. I stayed until he had moved on.
I managed to hold myself together and drove to Lindsays house and had a cup of tea but then went over to see my sister and completely broke down but it was so important for me to have that emotional release. If I am going to be working in this way with animals i know i need to be able to release my own emotions when the time is right because i will have to hold it together on so many occasions to help the animals guardians through whatever is happening.
I feel very honoured that Lindsay allowed me to be part of her and Brums last few hours together. It was hard, stressful and emotional but I am glad I could help them both and will continue to send Lindsay healing to help her cope with her grief.
suz
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