If at first you don't succeed try, try again.

So four spiders in as many days has me looking into what message from my guardians I am supposed to be receiving!

Adrian my lovely Shaman who I spent my first day at Macchu Piccu with had told me that my guardians will appear in the form of living beings to give me messages and at the point he said that a huge millipede crossed the path of where we had buried our offering to Mother Earth and he looked at me and said "you have many feet and will travel" well he was right about that, I think I have been away from home more this year than I have been in it - I should own Easyjet with the amount of flights I have done since I got back from South America.

Anyway last Wednesday morning at 4am I felt a tickle on my back which woke me up but I thought it was just my hair until I felt it again and I shot out of my bed - I had a long eight legged friend in my bed!  so after she was despatched safely outside I went back to my bed.  The next day I woke up at 6am to find a little black sturdy spider about 2 inches from my head on the wall above my bed - again she was dispatched safely out onto the deck, the same day but in the evening I was sitting having a glass of wine out on the deck which is just outside the bedroom with my laptop on my lap a little funny spider with different shaped legs walked over the top of my laptop - so after 3 of them I have to ask what is the message and started to do some google research.

Lots of websites say its about creativity and strength but I didn't think it was that - I am being creative and strong every day!  It was my friend who said what about Rabbie Burns - he wrote about a spider so of course I looked up his poem and of course the message to Robert the Bruce as he watched the spider try to build its web was that if at first you don't succeed try and try until you do.  Robert the Bruce then went on to batter the English at Bannockburn.

So where in my life is this message relevant?  I have thought about this and of course I live my life by this moto - I never give up and always keep going until I succeed so I can't think why this message would be for me until one of the lovely ladies pointed it out to me today when I got a message from my Guardian Angel in the meditation we did today on the Equine Healing course.  The message was of course - If at first you don't succeed try try again - but this meditation showed me the image of me falling off a horse but also being surrounded by unicorns who helped make my landing a soft one.

When I fell off Oliver a month ago I hurt my back but only the bit of my back that is usually sore and really it could have been so much worse as he is so big and also I got my foot caught in the stirrup so was dragged for a wee bit.  I know my guardians protect me at all times so know I got of lightly because they were watching me - although why they couldn't have stopped oliver bucking I don't know - that would have been the best use of their time to be honest!!!

Anyway I am determined not to spend 10 years of my life not riding again just because I fell off and I am determined to get back on and ride as much as I can but I haven't yet and a month has passed so I think that my guardians have been sending me spiders to remind me that you have to keep trying and eventually I will lose my 'hot seat' and horses will stop throwing me!!!

The forth spider with a message appeared at my friend Donna's house when I visited her on Friday night down south while I was on my Equine Healing course.  She asked me to ask him to leave and I explained that he looked quite happy - he was one of those big brown ones with up and down legs - the ones that run really fast if you disturb them!!  anyway I wasn't willing to move him as he had already lost a leg and I didn't want to hurt him so Donna went to get our other friend Alison who is an animal communicator - OMG - she is amazing!  She sat and talked to the spider for about 5 minutes and the next thing this spider was jumping into the plastic tub we had for it so we could put it outside.  It was amazing to watch and just shows that if we ask sometimes we get!  Alison is apparently well known for asking spiders to do her bidding and frequently jump into plastic bowls and allow themselves to be removed.  AMAZING!  I generally don't spend that much time with the spiders when they are in the house - a quick apology for what is about to happen which is usually them being tossed into a plastic bowl using a piece of card and then put outside and the door closed very quickly behind!

So I take my message from my guardians appearing as spiders and say thank you - I will keep trying until I succeed and as far as i am concerned this means until I have my own horse - which I will definitely have in the next year or so - I have waited 43 years to have my own horse and I know the wait is nearly over.

My message back to my guardians is - please don't send me spiders again!!! I am scared of them!!!  I can deal will millipedes so send me a few of those big beasties!!!

So look out for the messages from your guardians, they are not always whispered in our ears or given to us by Psychics - they can appear in physical form when we least expect it!

suzxxx