Carlos my shaman arrived at the end of day
10 and was a surprise to me – he is young, good looking and from Columbia! There was me thinking that I would have some
old mad man from the jungle! Carlos must
have been born a shaman or something, he can't be older than 30.
So we chatted for a while about why I
wanted to take the Ayuascha – I think he wants to make sure its not just
because I want a hallucinogenic high!
Once he started talking about how Ayauscha gives from the heart so I
need to open my heart I knew this was the right thing for me. It was amazing to
hear Carlos say that is how Ayuascha works – he also referred to her as SHE a
lot, I like that too. The Master Plant
is a female – that is just right.
Carlos talked about Ayauscha knowing how
much to show me and teach me – he said She will know exactly what I need,
I don’t need to ask.
We also talk about how it is tradition in
Peru to have the ceremony in the dark but in Colombia they do it in
the morning – he recommends that I do the ceremony in the morning rather than
at night. To be honest I had been up
since 5am so the thought of a 4 or 5 hour ceremony in the dark with the mozzy
bastards didn’t really appeal and the thought of having a good nights sleep and
being able to see the mozzy bastards coming while I have the ceremony seemed
like a really good one so we decided to meet at 7.30am – no breakfast for me,
just tea. I wonder if that’s in case I
puke my guts up. Anyway more info to
come after the ceremony….
You will all be pleased to hear I made it back! Drinking the Ayuascha was the easy bit – the
rest of it was the hardest thing I have ever done in this life or any of my
other lives – it was weird, horrifying, scary, tough, hard and emotional but
also beautiful, amazing, brilliant, fantastic and peaceful. There really are no words to describe, in
fact, there aren’t enough words to be able to tell the experience I have just
spent the last 5 hours having.
Did I get my questions answered? - YES!
My reason for being here and having been here so many times is one
really simple lesson I have to learn – its so simple its stupid that I have
been here so many times and not learnt it – so from now onward I am out to
learn my lesson and once done I can head off into Enlightenment but for now I
will enjoy the lesson learning.
Carlos was right that She knew exactly what
I needed to see – She knew not to show me too many demons as I wouldn’t have
coped but I saw enough of the demons to know what I have to deal with in my
next ceremony.
I am so pleased that I had my ceremony in
daylight – it would have been horrific to have gone through what I had to in
the dark – I really reached out to the trees, the plants and the sun – they
really helped me through it all. Thank
you to all the trees, the plants and the sun for being my protector and my
support (and bizarrely to my wee dead spider friend that sat through the whole
process with me!)
I am also really pleased that the Ceremony
was just for me – I have no idea how I would have managed if there were other
people going through the experience. I
really was inside my own head and was able to do whatever I needed to do
to
get me through.
Would I do it again? ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY!
I feel refreshed and revitalized ready for
the rest of my journey (life journey not trip journey!)
Sorry not to be able to give more but if
you want to know more you will need to come to the Amazon Jungle and drink the
Master Plant – now I know why she is called the Master Plant – thank you to
this amazing plant and thank you to Carlos for looking after me so well. AMAZING….
suzxxx
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