Tired but not emotional...

Oh my god I am so tired - i think my brain has absorbed more information in 4 days that it did the whole of my time at primary school and high school!!

We finished just after 5pm today and i had to go for a lie down in my tent!

We learnt how to do neck line driving with a horse today!  Yes its as complicated as it sounds!  bloody hell!  i am not even sure i can explain what i did so might need a bit more time to process that learning before i share it!!

Today i have seen 3 other women get emotional and shed some tears and although i can understand why as the course can be a bit overwhelming and also we are working with unpredictable animals with the horses but i haven't felt overwhelmed emotionally at all but i have taken the time to meditate at lunchtime.

There are i think 26 women on the course so you can imagine what its like at break times and lunch times with the chatter and noise so its good to slip away and meditate.  I have come up with my own Awareness Meditation - i am sure there are others like it out there but just to sit and listen to the birds tweeting and try to single out one sound and take the sound through my body and feel the vibration then taking the vibration back out of my body and then taking the sound of a car and listen to it from when its far away until its close to until it has gone off in the distance but singling it out and only listening to that sound and taking the vibration through my body and letting go and then doing the same with whatever sounds are coming at me. It actually seems to make me more aware of my body and the world around me and seems to help me to single out one bit of chat from the chatter of 26 women which has a calming effect on me rather than making me want to run from the room screaming.

I do think that being able to take the time out to do my Awareness Meditation  has helped me get through the course and its overwhelming moments and not be so emotional especially with everyone else's energies spilling over into the room.  Also i am good at grounding myself which helps to process the emotions so it doesn't all come out in emotional tears and of course protecting myself from absorbing others energies or allowing others to take my energy.

Mind you i am saying all this i bet i end up having a good old blub tomorrow!

Will keep you posted!

suz
xxx